You can get through anything

Authors note: Theme loss of Innocence. This is about how in the book speak Melinda losses her innocence and how she over powers the judgement of her peers. 

Within one night she had gone from being a nobody to a somebody, that everyone hated. Melinda would do anything to take that night back. She thought she was "cool" because she was a freshman, a freshman invited to a senior party. Senior parties are the "best" part of the whole high school experience, alcohol, popular girls, popular boys, maybe even a place where you can "hook up" with someone. Melinda being a freshman was more excited and nervous than ever. She fell into peer pressure and got drunk, she thought it was going to be the best night of her life. A boy and her went into the woods. She was so drunk she couldn't make the name face connection. She thought they were going to make out and it was going to be fun. At first that's all that happened. Within a instant she was thrown to the floor with him reaching for her zipper. She didn't want this to happen. For the record she didn't even know what he was going to do to her. In the book Speak, by Laurie Halse Anderson, Melinda lost her "innocence", which caused her to be an outcast among her friend. We learn that, even though we might go through hard times, we should never give up.  

Melinda was raped, by a stranger, no, a peer that she would be in classes with. She was scared, mortified, nerveless terrified. If anyone found out, she feared that she would become the schools' "whore". That people would only want her for body and what she would do to them not for what who she really was.  She felt like she had become the kid in elementary school that had a cel phone, everyone's eyes were on her. Except this was different. She was no longer a "goodie goodie".

Melinda had also lost her innocence of being a child, having fun. That night was the night she lost her nights playing with her friends.  No more little kid this little kid that.  There was no more mom there to kiss your knee when you fall down, no more mom to bring you warm milk when you can't sleep, and no more Santa it was all gone.She was in high school.  It was time for her to take responsibly for her actions. She had lost the innocence of having friends that are there for no matter what. This was high school where friends where there when your life was good and not when it wasn't, will talk behind your back to some one else, and get jealous. 

Melinda lost herself also she lost her life, her friends, to personally, everything. She was depressed and was on a road to now where.  She was lost in her own world where she was alone and had no where and no one to go to. She lost it, she hurt herself, she felt as if it was better than feeling the pain. Seeing the blood fall down her arms in droplets took her mind to other places. For a second she was focused on nothing other than the ruby red color of her fresh blood dropping slowly down her wrist. She lost her innocence of herself, she had been in so much pain it was almost better to have the cuts and bruises than to feel her heartbreak into a million little pieces. 

Melinda, lost herself for some time. She didn't know where she was to go. She kept pushing through and finally she made it through. She was terrified all the way through. She never gave up and she got where she wanted to be. She learned that true friends wont judge her for what happened to her that they will stick with you through thick and thin. She learned who any people thought nothing of her because she lost her virginity. She lost herself. She lost everything. Melinda pushed through and at the end of the tunnel there was light.